Small Rebellious Acts of Creativity #6

Small Rebellious Acts of Creativity (#SRAOC) is a weekly invitation to explore a word, or phrase, through whichever creative avenue, platform or modality the participant wishes. It is intended to be a philosophical or creative catalyst moreso than a straight up writing prompt.


Make it accessible for yourself. Easeful. Invite yourself into a place and a space free from the pressure of overwhelm. Pressure to perform. Keep it simple. Small is not subjugation. Small is not less than. Small carries a power all of its own. Gift yourself 5 minutes. Sometimes it doesn’t need to be anything more.


Rebel against apathy, procrastination, perfection, self contempt, self doubt, lack of confidence, lack of time, other people’s antagonism, lack of belief, the voice of the inner critic, and anything else that wants to tell you ‘no’. Flip the bird at your Imposter Complex. Interrogate. Innovate. Initiate. This is a space for saying yes.

Act Of

Do. Doable. Doing. Done. Even if it’s five bed-headed minutes, on a Wednesday morning, with your first infusion of caffeine for the day, tapping a list of ten things into your phone. Make a space. Fill it.


Make something from nothing. Anything. The possibilities are endless. Draw. Paint. Build. Dance in the shower. Play. Howl. Doodle. Bake. Cut up poetry. Block out text. Collage magazine pictures. Snap a photograph. Garden. Read something aloud. Send someone a card. Make a digital mash-up. Create a playlist. Hum a song. Journal. Daybook. Write a list. Instagram a favourite quote. Play the instrument you have buried away in your cupboard.

This week’s invitation is…

We will be back Sunday to share our meanderings and renderings and to see where ‘grace and gratitude’ took you during the week.

SRAOC #5 First Snow

Small Rebellious Acts of Creativity (#SRAOC) is a weekly invitation to explore a word, or phrase, through whichever creative avenue, platform or modality the participant wishes. It is intended to be a philosophical or creative catalyst moreso than a straight up writing prompt.

This week’s prompt was: First Snow


I live in the sub-tropics. Snow is not part of our weather equation (though we did all delight in cutting out snowflakes as kids in art!) So I took a slightly different path.

It made me think of all the firsts we collectively share, but like each snow flake they are unique and one-of-a-kind. We all took a first breath when we entered this world, but each is vastly different to the next. We have taken first steps, spoken first words, and smiled for very first time. As we got older we stormed and normed through friendships, we suffered through first crushes (and perhaps first kisses) and had our first intimate experiences of another. Each experience gathered a kaleidoscope of feelings and thoughts all unique. All firsts.

We received our first certificates and awards, sat our first exams, handed in our first essays, wrote our first stories or songs or completed our first pieces of art, or competed in something for the first time. We received our first pay cheques, drove for the first time, left home for the first time, traveled overseas or interstate alone for the first time. We attended our first wedding, first funeral and celebrated the arrival of a new life for the first time, whether into our own family or that of someone close. We watched a sunset, walked on a beach, climbed a mountain, touched snow, grew something in a pot and watched a storm from our bedroom window, and each of us wove something different around those experiences. We are the same and different.

We left a job for the first time, missed a promotion, left a relationship, experienced heart break, lost someone and felt for the first time we did not belong in this world. We experienced disappointment, disillusionment, regret, shame, judgement, sorrow, overwhelm, confusion, apathy and disapproval for the first time. While each of those instances might have been different we all felt the same in the moment.

We made decisions to honour ourselves and our paths, for the first time and asked others to acknowledge and respect it also for the first time. Perhaps after years of living in the shadows or crushed beneath expectations.

In the words of Rilke

I want to unfold
I don’t want to be folded anywhere
Because where I am folded
There I am a lie

As we age the list of firsts gets shorter and perhaps reaches a point where we have no more firsts unless we actively seek them to enrich and expand our lives before our time here ends.

In this moment we are unique and incredible, with infinite potential – just as we were the moment we sucked oxygen into our virgin lungs and howled our arrival in this world. We are if we choose to think of ourselves still in a world full of firsts, preparing for our imminent arrival.


It was late October about 10 years ago, and I was on the way to my daughter’s farm when it started snowing. Now, Maryland snowfalls in October are pretty to watch, but they never really stick. For this snowfall, it not only coated the trees and grasses, it accentuated the beautiful peak of Autumn’s most brilliant colors. The result? A once-in-my-lifetime impressionist moment where seasons collided, and nature’s canvas painted itself miraculously before me. This First Snow reminded me of the natural world that Thoreau brought to life in his journals; here, I tried to do the same through the lens of my camera.


1.3 Writer Rising

The scent of chickens from the coops across the street sifts through a cracked window, where on this warm Monday evening in early September, 1971, I sit crying at my dining room table. The lights are low. I struggle to remember my alphabet as I write letters in some imagined style of script. It is the night before the opening day of first grade, and I am panicking that I will not be perfect and ready for what Mrs. O’Donnell, my new teacher, has in store for us.

The fowl sounds of scratching and hackling nag at me as I wonder if I will ever be good enough, ready enough, to please others.

Such is my foundation for audience awareness, a blessing and a curse for me as I struggle to let go of pleasing while taking the risk in vulnerable words — forms that go against the styles and structures of our times.

Conform. peck peck peck Conform. peck peck peck Conform.

I read through my poetry from my youngest years and see a remarkable attempt to paint pictures in soft pastels, a diluted wash of me, as teachers remarked just as plainly.

“Excellent.” “Has potential.” “My favorite.”

In the strongest desire possible to please an audience, I failed at making any memorable connection.

I often look back at that evening in my dining room and ponder the origins of such anxiety and dread. It certainly didn’t evolve out of any parental or sibling pressure; I was the only one who freaked out about pleasing my teachers or always being prepared. That cycle of anxiety-to-pleasing-to-failure continued for several years until I happened to have a teacher named Jack Delaney in sixth grade, a charismatic man who taught me all about the writing process and the power of drafting and revising; risks were possible before a real audience would take a look at what I had written.

It was the ’70s, and we were all about open-space classrooms. In one large room we had six sections of fifth and sixth graders with a reading space in the center. We looked like a race track with avid readers on the inside, absorbing the stories of Judy Blume, Shirley Jackson, Edgar Allan Poe, and so many others.

In our slice of space, we held something called “writers’ workshop” where we shared our drafts with others, took risks in reading them aloud, and then letting our peers know what we liked about their stories, and what we didn’t. For the first time in my life, I could feel the stress and anxiety leave me. There was a process after all; it didn’t have to be perfect the first time around.

The concept was liberating to me, as it provided me space to make mistakes, experiment, and even fail. This was the first time anybody had ever taught me to “trust the process” and to think less of what pleased others and more of what I had to say as me: the writer, a real individual with real ideas that — shocker — weren’t necessarily the same as those of my friends.

And so, in retrospect, I’m not really sure which came first: the structure and style of writing recursively, or Delaney granting me permission to take risks, be myself, and — most importantly — write for myself.

When we felt a piece was ready for release, Delaney gave our words an audience, and each Friday, we would gather in a circle on a reading carpet — just like we did when we were in kindergarten — to share our polished works. No criticisms, no judgments. Just applause.

If only origin stories had happily-ever-afters built nicely into them.

Years later, in my first months of teaching, the anxieties returned. I found myself worried about being the “perfect” teacher and pleasing everyone: administrators, colleagues, parents, and students. It was an impossible thing to do, but I could not break from the cycle. It affected my writing, too. Everything had taken a back seat to the whirlwind of pleasing, acceptance, and fear of failure.

Conform. peck peck peck Conform. peck peck peck Conform.

After an evening school event in early spring, in the very same month that my writing mentor Jack Delaney died, I had an unlikely conversation with best-selling author Tom Clancy. I was teaching a few of his children, and he knew I was working on a book. He took me aside and asked me how the writing was going.

I hung my head a little and muttered about how busy life was as a first-year teacher. I could barely keep up with the demands placed on me.

He laughed at me and shook his head. “My god, boy. You’re still in diapers, a writer rising. Just make the time and write the damned thing.”

I took his advice, and a few years later, I did finish writing the damned thing.

There’s still no happily ever after, and the struggles continue. But I do make the time to write, no matter what, and I still remember the power of writing in cursive, I still remember to let go of the anxiety, and I still remember to trust the process.

After all, I am the Writer Rising.